A time to dance...

 

 

Sometimes, it just happens.  You get a rare opportunity to let your hair down and just dance.  You know... All out dance and let it go and be silly and crazy.  Tonight, I was blessed to be able to do that with Carter and Emma.  We were getting ready for my bible study girls to come over for a Christmas get together, and one of our favorite songs (Shakina Glory) came on.  As if on cue, Carter, Emma and I just started to dance.  Laughing and giggling and praising God and dancing. 

 

Tonight will be one of those nights I will remember forever.  Emma kept turning the radio up and was just squealing.  We let loose and it was like heavven on Earth. 

 

And then it hit me.  I was with the kids and watching them and just so full of joy.  And God in heaven was watching us in even more joy as we praised him.  Even now, that is hard for me to imagine!  And if we can not only experience that joy, but create that joy for God by just praising him... why don't we do it more often??? 

 

Before I knew it, our song was over, the radio turned down, and I went back to cutting cheese and singing quietly to the kids.  But... I was changed.  Who knows for how long, but changed all the same.  I caught a glimpse of the joy God has when we worship him with reckless abandon. 

 

So.. that is my prayer for you as we get a day closer to Christmas.  That you might find a time to dance.  To release the inhibitions and just full heartedly worship God.  However that might look for you, I pray that it blesses you with a new awareness of Him, just as it has me!

 

Psalm 13:6 - I will sing the LORD’s praise, for he has been good to me.

Christmas... It's about the cross.



So... I have a big passion for sharing ways to keep Christ in Christmas. So many times the holidays get hectic and we're so wrapped up in the great activities (I mean that in the kindest way possible... They are really great events...) that we don't take time to slow down... to be still... and to know that He is God. Really. Stop and think about it. When in the last month have you been still and just listened for his voice. (Especially without that nagging voice checking off things to get done!)


As we close in on Christmas, I'm want to share a youtube link with you. This is a great song, that reminds us of our eternal life! Blessings to you and your family as we make final preparations for the arrival of our "king."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0tNyKzIABfk

Resurrection... Rolls.

So... I recently joined a blog site called "She cooks" (http://www.shecooks.org/)  from LeAnn Rice at Proverbs 31.  Today on her post she had ideas for Christmas morning breakfast.  This is a receipe that I made for my family recently, but didn't know they were called this. 

I'm so excited for the Christmas season, but one of my passions is helping my kids (and some adults) learn to really celebrate why we have Christmas and that it is more than head knowledge, but becomes heart felt.  This is just another small tradition that we can share to help us remember...

He came as a baby, with a virgin birth.  That moment, a miracle.
However, an annointed baby - awesome, but a risen savior, now that's what it's about. 
He died on the cross for us...  again, what a price to pay. 
But.... the real reason, the real gift, the real everything...
Defeating satan and rising from the dead, so that we have ETERNAL life... 
That our sins and yuck could be forgiven
And we could one day join Him in His perfection. 


LeAnn’s Favorite Christmas Breakfast Idea


It may sound odd but I always make Resurrection Rolls for our Christmas breakfast. (I make them for Easter, too.) To me, on Christmas we celebrate the gift of Hope. Hope came to us wrapped in swaddling cloth. But He was born to die. Jesus died so that we may truly live. I remember this ultimate gift and ultimate sacrifice by making Resurrection Rolls for Christmas each year. They are easy to make and they provide a great opportunity to share the story of His resurrection with others. Here’s the recipe:

Resurrection Rolls

1 container large crescent roll dough (not the regular size – they won’t work)
½ stick butter, melted
8 large marshmallows
Cinnamon sugar mixture (purchase the mix or combine 1 teaspoon cinnamon for every tablespoon of sugar)

Preheat oven to 350 degrees.

Separate the dough triangles. (This represents the cloth that Jesus was wrapped in.)
Take a marshmallow. (This represents Jesus.)
Dip the marshmallow in melted butter and roll to coat. (This represents the oils of embalming.)
Dip the buttered marshmallow in the cinnamon-sugar mixture and coat evenly. (This represents the spices used to anoint His body.)
Wrap up the coated marshmallow tightly in the crescent roll to seal the marshmallow inside. (This represents the wrapping of Jesus’ body after death.)
Place on a cookie sheet and place in the preheated oven for the length of time indicated on the crescent roll package. (The oven represents the tomb.)

When the rolls have cooked and cooled slightly, bite into the rolls and discover that Jesus is no longer there, HE IS RISEN! (The marshmallow melts and the crescent roll is puffed up, but empty!)

These rolls are not only a delicious Christmas breakfast, they are another opportunity to give praise and thanks for the ultimate Christmas present. Serve them with some fresh fruit and hot chocolate.

I'm in Love....

So, those of you that know me are thinking... awe, isn't that sweet...  BUT... this time I'm not talking about my dear sweet husband.  (Although I love him to infinity and beyond too!)  I'm talking about Revelation.  You know... the last book of the bible.  The one for years many of us have been afraid to read.  The one that up until recently when Tom and I did a Beth Moore study (yes... you read that right!  My husband did a Beth Moore study with me:-)  I thought was so full of things I could never understand that it was hard for me to push my way through it.  (BTW - If you haven't done Beth Moore's Revelation study - I consider it a MUST for every christian.  Very solid on presenting all the views from the commentaries and explaining how they arrived at that view!) 

Anyway...  I'm now loving the book of Revelation.  Over the last few days, I've decided to read it in a variety of bibles and translations.  As I've read through the new testament right after completing this study, I'm amazed at how God has opened my eyes to the number of references it contains to the end times.  So many things are linked from the old testament to the new testament, right into Revelation.  Very cool! 

During our study, this was our memory verse...  

Rev 17:14
¹⁴ They will wage war against the Lamb, but the Lamb will triumph over them because he is Lord of lords and King of kings—and with him will be his called, chosen and faithful followers.”

(which by the way, I'm still working on!) 

I guess with all the cool things in Revelation, I love this verse because it is truly the heart of who we are as Christians; and with him (Jesus) will be his called, chosen and faithful followers (THAT'S US LADIES!!!)  So, Satan can have a hay day for the time being on Earth.  BUT, Jesus IS coming again, victorious AGAIN, overcoming and we will be with him. 

Now, no promises that it will be all roses and blossoms.  It's going to be a rough road to get there.  We are going to have troubles.  No doubt about that.  But, whether it's today, tomorrow, next month, next year, in the next  generation, or the generation after that... whenever it's time for Jesus to come again... as a faithful follower, we get to be with him and join him.  AND then.... we get to live eternity in the Glory of God the Father.  WOW....  really - WOW.  Not just sweet songs and quietness, but joy and adoration.  Rejoicing.  No more sorrow, no more pain.  (WHoot - Hoot!)

Someone once told me to read Revelation out loud like a story.  I did this a few years ago sitting in a wooded area on a mini-retreat with my bible study.  My friend Deanne and I took turns reading and listening.  It was awesome.  My hope is that this weekend, as a way of concluding this 30 day journey, that I can find some quiet time to do that again.  To take it in. 

So... this is the end of my 30 day journey.  Guess you're all stuck with me going back to my random blogs!  We'll see what God puts on my heart for that piece! 

The last hour...

Hello again... 

We're getting so close to the end of the New Testament!  Woo-Hoo! 

Today's reading was I Peter: 3-5, 2 Peter, and 1 John

I paused today at 1 John 2:18 - 19

 ¹⁸ Dear children, this is the last hour; and as you have heard that the antichrist is coming, even now many antichrists have come. This is how we know it is the last hour. ¹⁹ They went out from us, but they did not really belong to us. For if they had belonged to us, they would have remained with us; but their going showed that none of them belonged to us.

I think this sticks out from a recent Beth Moore bible study that we did.  In it, she pointed out that their have been and will be several anti-christs.  This verse talks about that very thing - even now many antichrists have come.

I found her point really interesting and as I read this tonight, it flooded back to me.  You see, only God knows when the second coming is.  So... Satan has to always be prepared, and continue to send anti-christs.  Who the one-great anti-christ is, we do not know...  But we can bet that Satan will continue to put obstacles in our way. 

All this isn't to scare us.  It's to continue to encourage us to read his word and to know it and what he says.  When the false teachers are trying to lead us astray, we need to be firmly rooted in His truth! 

"Father God, thank you for the bible.  You give us truth in your own god breathed manner so that we can know what is from you and what is from man.  I pray that you'd give us wisdom in our difficult days to turn toward your word and your holy spirits promptings.  Lead us and guide us toward you and away from things that are not of you!" 

Water symbolizes baptism... Three small but powerful words

This is a piece of artwork by Thomas duBois. Tom and I have this set of 4, which we fell in love with years ago, and managed to get for each others as gifts over the first years of our marriage. I look at this piece daily, and tonight, it takes on special meaning...


I'm sitting here tonight and pondering how I missed so many things for so long in my lifetime. I had intended to write about how many things I LOVED reading in Hebrews yesterday...

And then, doing today's reading (Hebres 11 - 1 Peter 2) I read into 1 Peter 3. And at the end of Chapter 3, I read this...

1 Peter 3:20-21
20 to those who were disobedient long ago when God waited patiently in the days of Noah while the ark was being built. In it only a few people, eight in all, were saved through water, 21 and this water symbolizes baptism that now saves you also—not the removal of dirt from the body but the pledge of a clear conscience toward God.[a] It saves you by the resurrection of Jesus Christ,

SO... I'm sure that many of you got this before, and I'm just a bit slow in catching on... but seriously, I NEVER realized that the significance of baptism stretched back to Noah. Don't ask me why I never questioned why John the Baptist would do it... I just assumed he was moved int he spirit to do so!

God waited for Noah to build the ark for 120 years (I think...) and gave people time to change and believe.

The flood separated Noah from the lost and gave him a new life. Hmmm... the same is said of our spiritual baptism.

And was it 9 complete months he was out there before landing on the mountain? This is a stretch, but it seems like seeing the mountains and hitting ground is a bit like being "born again."

8 in all saved, to me has revelance to how it will be in the end times. Eight of Noah's out of how many people? So to, will it likely be for Christians as a % of the population...

WOW, WOW, WOW... (Ok - so if you're appalled I'm just getting this, I'm sorry!) But seriously, why don't we talk about this piece at some point during our baptism ceremonies????? (Then the slow ones like me would get it:-)

This piece has me a bit undone tonight. I'm digging into the commentaries and cross references in amazement! I think this is on my list of "dig really deep..." items.

"God thank you for new revelations. Thanks for answering that prayer of opening my eyes so faithfully. Continue to teach me things that are new to me... I'm ok with being humbled! And thank you for the promise of your holy spirit and it's cleansing in our baptism. Thank you for transforming us and bringing us out of the old and into the new."

Be Strong!

So today I am posting about 2 Timothy, Titus and Philemon. No apologies today for being a day late. The flu is still working it's way through, and I'm at the point where I'm happy just be keeping my head above water:-)


Good news is, I've been pondering this verse since Thursday morning...

2 Tim. 2:1

"You then, my son, be strong in the grace that is in Christ Jesus."

Be strong.... His grace covers us, and we have the promise of eternal life. He forgives our sins and makes us white as snow... but... "be strong?" The foot note in my bible talked about how we are not only saved by grace, but that we should live by grace.

In Colossians 2:6 we read...

"So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live in him, rooted and built up in him, strengthened in faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness."

Continue to live in him, live by grace. Strengthened in faith, overflowing wtih thankfulness. That's a lot to think about! The mere fact that his grace abounds time and time again should help us to realize that we need to trust in Jesus. He sent His Spirit, who is always with us and is able to do more than he... When they do I try so often to do things on my own? Why don't I allow him to "strengthen" me. To give me wisdom, revelation, everything I need. My strength and my very being should come from him!

As I think back to the tail end of this little flu bug I'm fighting off, I think about how weak I've been. Literally, there were times when standing up made me feel light headed and like I might pass out. I associate that same type of feeling when I am operating on "all me" and ignoring the Holy Spirit at work in my life. I end up in a panic of emotions and attacks from Satan that have my mind spinning. When I was sick and felt this way, life has taught me I need to eat some crackers and try to get a bit of liquid in me. From a spiritual standpoint, when my strength is weak, I need to turn to Jesus and let him strengthen me...

"Lord, I'm overflowing with thankfulness for your strength at work in my life tonight. In so many ways, you provide for me day after day after day. Thank you. Thank you for accepting me and applying grace time and time again. Forgive my sin nature and strengthen me with more of you."

So we raise up Holy hands....

For the past bit, I have been doing an exercise in digging into the word. I was listening to a teaching series on the power of a focused life, and was moved by this piece. If we ask Christians if they read their bible, of course we say "yes." BUT... how much time are we truly spending in the word each day? (More than with tv?) The speaker went on to say that for many of us, it's hard to just know where to start. The whole I'm just going to open it and read where God leads, leaves many feeling that they are missing something... SO... he shared this. Did you know that if you read 10 chapters a day, 6 days a week, that you will have read the entire new testament in 30 days??? I'm a goal setter kind of girl, so that really hit me! Now.. somedays 10 chapters is alot... Especially if you're going to let it soak in at all. However, having a goal in mind has really helped me reprioritize my time. Because I've done some life coaching, I also know that 30 days is the amount of time it takes to form a new habit. So.... I'm on the journey. Reading my 10 chapters a day (with some grace applied - I'm human and I'm a mom, a wife, in ministry, etc.) and then blogging about what really stuck out to me!


I'm posting this morning from yesterday's reading, which was 2 Thess. & 1 Tim.

Ladies, let me tell you, there's a verse in here that I absolutely LOVE...

1 Timothy 2:8 -
"I want men everywhere to lift up holy hands in prayer, without anger or disputing."



I remember when I first came to church with my husband while we were dating. I came from a very conservative background, and people everywhere in his church were raising their hands and singing. Then they asked us to get into small groups and pray "out loud" together (I was mortified and just passed when my "turn" came.) After the service... his son was wrestling with someone... in the sanctuary (Gasp.....) This was WAY out of my comfort zone! My, how God has worked on me since that time.

God wants us to worship him. That means different things to different people. However, I hold firm that it's hard to let our hearts be completely free with him if we have anger or disputes. So many times in my life, I've seen others abandonded in prayer and worship and asked God.... 1) what's up with them? That can't be for real - which really meant - 2) God I'm jealous of how they can give themselves competely to you so I am going to judge their actions.

In the last few years, God has taught me a lot about lifting up hands in prayer. Not only in acceptance in how people worship, but also in entering his presence with a right heart. You see, when I was so busy worrying about others experience, it was ME that was preventing me from worshipping and praying to God all out. It wasn't him. I needed to change my posture. I needed to examine my heart and realize that whatever bitterness I was harboring was keeping me from getting closer to him. God calls me to love others. When I'm not operating in love, I'm out of his will for me. (which, by the way happens daily:-( But again, he's a God of grace!)

"Thank you Jesus for inviting us to worship you. For loving our prayers and for the reassurance that worship and prayer can go together. Wow God. For me, much worship and prayer happens to music and I so thank you for the beautiful gifts you've given so many in leading music. (and thank you for nice car trips where I can really let lose!) When I'm still before you Lord, you move my inner being. Thank you for the quiet times, when I can hear from you. I continue to be amazed by you. So today,we raise up holy hands, to praise the holy, who was and is, and is to come..."

I'll pour my love on you...

So, the flu has been making it's way through our house, and today it stopped at me.  Needless to say, I spent the day in 2 spots.  One was a very comfy couch in our basement.  (I won't divulge the other:-) 

As I was weak and tired and struggling, God made it so clear to me what awesome kids I have, and how much they love me.  Seriously, if I had the energy, I'd have been in tears. 

The boys had early out Wednesday, and Caleb didn't want to go to his normal "sitter".  He wanted to come home with me...  cuz he didn't want me to have to be alone.  So, he sat by me quietly and read.  Wow!  What an angel!

Then, Emma gets home.  She was such a little mother.  Honestly, I felt like one of her dollies and she just lavished love on me. 

And after church Carter comes down and just holds me close.  Asks me if I'm doing better. 

You know, there are a lot of days when I think that I'm not doing such a great job as a mom.  I get crabby over little things and yell to much, and, and, and... 

Today, the love these 3 (and Tom!) lavished on me was so affirming.  "Thank you God for blessing me with such a great family!  Thank you that how they covered me with their love today is but a taste of the goodness and love that you have for me.  Thank you, that even in the midst of the yucky's you can open my eyes to blessing.  You are such an awesome Father!"

As far as reading goes, well....  I made 7 chapters.  So, I'm going go finish in bed, and hopefully tomorrow morning will hold more strength... and a post from me!

For the Love of Paul...

Oh... what a great day of reading.  Today I covered Philippians, Colossians, and 1 Thessalonians.  WOW...Wow...wow....

So, I can't chose just one thing that stuck out.  And, because I seem to have been making up the rules as I go... I'm going to pick one from each Book. 

Philippians 4:12-13
¹² I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. ¹³ I can do all this through him who gives me strength.

This verse always speaks to me, but especially at Christmas time it really hits home.  You see, I have been in need.  Big time.  Like, couldn't afford to eat type of need.  I remember rejoicing when my parents would have me out for dinner, and I remember my girlfriend Di having me to her house to eat.  I'm not certain that anyone knew that I was likely not going to eat if they didn't call.  (or maybe they did!)  I wasn't starving, because I had a job that provided meals often during the day.  I've come to realize their is a difference between hunger and starvation.  I was just hungry (Praise God!)  And... it was for a short period of time, just until I could get back on my feet...  But it gave me perspective.  It taught me not to judge.  It has sunken into the core of who I am.  (Like, I LOVE to shop at second hand stores!) 

Right now, I am in a time of blessing.  I have plenty.  And I praise God for that.  However, I also remember that he gives and takes away.  Therefore, my identity is not in what I have, but in whose I am.  I don't care where I live, as long as I have God and my family.  For now, I'm emjoying my nice house... if tomorrow holds something different, then I'll praise God in the midst of it. 

And then the infamous... "I can do all things through him who gives me strength."  I am always surprised when I read the bible how we miss the context of so many verses.  Don't get me wrong, I typically hear this in the right spirit.  However, when you read it with what Pual was saying right before it, it has SOOOOO much more meaning. 


Colossians 2:16-17

16 Therefore do not let anyone judge you by what you eat or drink, or with regard to a religious festival, a New Moon celebration or a Sabbath day. 17 These are a shadow of the things that were to come; the reality, however, is found in Christ.
 
I literally wrote the words COMPEL next to this in my bible.  You see, when planning the conference, it is so EASY to get hung up on the details.  We sincerely want it to be a great conference.  However, most of all, we want it to be founded on Christ.  I have said this before, but we have such a great group of women on the leadership team.  Prayer time with them is incredible and sincere.  I praise God for that.  So... the music may not be exactly what you are used to.  You may not have the "perfect" meal.  They may run out of coffee just when you go to fill your cup, or you may sit under a vent.  HOWEVER, we've prayed and prayed and prayed and will continue to pray over this event.  And I trust that Christ will be glorified.  Lysa does an awesome job, and we're smothering her in prayer.  That she may hear His voice and speak exactly what we need to hear.  That is in His control.  So... this is a good challenge for me.  To not worry so much about what people "think" or if it appears to be all put together and buttoned up.  God isn't into the details.  He's into us... 
 
 
1 Thesalonians 5:16-18
 ¹⁶ Rejoice always, ¹⁷ pray continually, ¹⁸ give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.
 
Sometimes we just need a little reminder.  Rejoice or be joyful always.  Seriously God????  Ok girls, I'd love to tell you that this is what people say about me... you know that Jen, she is just always so cheerful and happy looking and always praising God...  BUT.... I am the mom of 3 small children and 2 big children, the proud owner of 2 dogs (1 of which is on my very short list today:-)) and I can be down right crabby...  unbearable even.   AND... I love to pray... but, like all of us, I don't feel like I do it enough.  The list could go on and on of my shortcomings.  (Tom isn't home, or he'd maybe want to add to it:-) 
 
However, I don't see this verse as a "correction" verse.  I see it as a reminder.  Whatever is going on in my day to day, God wants to use that.  Perhaps it will turn into a story I use in one of my talks, perhaps it will help me help someone else at work, perhaps it will impact my family when the grow older, perhaps it will touch the life of someone who I don't even know...  The point is, I am not in control of today, but I am in control of my choices.  If I chose to look upward, no matter WHAT is going on in my "world", I will be reminded that God can use everything.  And for that I can give him thanks, and be joyful!  
 
I end tonight in prayer for my friend Lynn.  She's in the office next door to me at ATLAS, and I've grown to appreciate her in so many ways.  Tomorrow at noon she will undergo surgery to determine if she has liver cancer.  "God, I pray that you would take these circumstances and use them for your glory.  You know my heart would be for mis diagnosis and complete healing.  However, I trust you in all circumstances God.  Lynn is in need right now God.  She needs your healing hand, and the peace that surpasses all understanding.  At the same time God, let her have plenty.  Plenty prayers, plenty faith, and plenty love.  Block Satan in his attacks now Lord, that she may see you and you alone as she undergoes what might be one of the scariest days of her life tomorrow!  Thanks for your promise that we should give thanks in all circumstances, for this is your will.  May we give you thanks for this trial that Lynn is going through, and may we be obedient to the path laid out for us." 

Pour your love on me...

Ok - I feel like I'm full of excuses, but... if any of you are mom's you will get what the end of a 4 day holiday weekend is like.  Top it of with the twins waking in the middle of the night with the flu, and you'll get why I'm combining Sunday and Monday. 

2 Cor. 9 - Gal. 5 - was Sunday

In Galatians 5:6 we read

"The only thing that counts is faith expressing itself through love." 

As a preface, remember that Paul is talking about circumcision, which was an outward sign of status and place.  More so, he's talking about what I call religiosity.  How by following the "religious law" we think we are earning our way into heaven, when in reality, many times it produces pride that separates us from God instead of drawing us closer to him. 

So, this verse really says alot about how to draw closer to God...  It's not by strict compliance to the law... It's by loving.  Love your neighbor as yourself.  When we love, we will naturally follow the law.  God's spirit will guide us, and our decisions will reflect His love. 

Gal 6 - Eph 6 - is today - Monday (and WHAT a Monday:-))  I actually didn't get 10 in, as I wanted to end at Ephesians and hold off on Philippians until tomorrow!   

Eph 3:16-19
¹⁶ I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, ¹⁷ so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, ¹⁸ may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, ¹⁹ and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

Continuing on with the "love" thoughts.  If the spirit dwells in our inner being....  we can be rooted and established in love.  But I still don't think that we get it.  I think of the temple and the angels crying "Holy, Holy, Holy..." I think maybe, just maybe, they are truly beginning to grasp the love of Christ, and be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.  I don't think that we as humans can even begin to imagine it.  So when we think we're loving enough, when our pride gets in the way, when we think "well, I'm not going to get walked all over here," whenever we aren't focused on loving and showing love, it's because we can't yet grasp the fullness of God.  We can't truly comprehend His "love."  Although he may reveal himself to us more and more each day, until he comes again, I don't think we will truly understand. 

"Father God... Thank you for your love for us.  A love that we can't even phathom.  God, I want to learn more about yoru love, so that I, in turn, can do a better job of loving others.  Reveal yourself to me and give me wisdom and understanding.  And then, help me to not be lazy, but to pour that love onto others.  Help me to see clearly situations where you would pour your love out, and then give me the courage to just let it ooze out of me." 

Feelin like a "turkey"

So....  I feel like a turkey.  Seriously, I haven't blogged since Monday!!!  How can that be??? 

I have been steady at my reading, but getting to the computer and getting a blog done, well... it just didn't happen.  I'm very sorry, please extend grace!  Early in the week Emma had the flu, and then it was business with getting ready to cook Thanksgiving night.  (which I totally LOVED doing!)  At any rate, I missed out on the blogging.  Good news is, like all of you, I'm human and fail, even when intentions are there! 

Today,  I'm deciding whether to catch up, or just post from today's reading... 

Where have I been? 

Tuesday - Acts 27 - Romans 8
Wednesday - Romans 9 - 1 Cor. 3
Thursday - My day of not reading this week:-) 
Friday - 1 Cor 4 - 14 

Oh, so much good stuff in all of these... but, I think I better just stick to today's verses - 1 Cor 15 - 2 Cor. 8


For Christ’s love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died.

2 Corinthians 5:14

The word "compel" stuck out to me here.  (Ok - so for obvious reasons!)  Seriously - For Christ's love compels us...  That is really what the Compel conference is all about.  His love.  Regardless of denomination and your stance on "such and such."  We unite, because of His love.  Because he died for each one of us individually...  It's our prayer that we honor "God" in all we do at the conference. 

"Father God, compel us...  to do your will.  May your love be our focus, and may it abound.  We ask Lord that we may honor you.  Make us dead to our old lives and alive in you.  May our focus be only on sharing you with others!"

The Beach!!!

Ok - I'll get serious in a minute... But first....  (seriuosly... it's been freezing rain and icy all day, how could I not get stuck at the word "beach") 

Acts 16 - 26...  Within in these scriptures are the only mentions in the bible of one of my loves in life... The beach... (mentioned 3 times) More specific - praying at the beach!  (Acts 21:5) 

At least once a year (I'm spoiled, I know!) my husband indulges me and takes me to the beach.  I can seriously lay there for hours singing and praying and lost in my own little world with God.  Day after day!  If I didn't have kids... I'm thinking it might be an issue! 

Now mind you, Paul is heading into a horribly dangerous situation (and the other 2 times it is mentioned, is in the midst of that situation).  What becomes clear to me, is that he is answering God's call.  When they prayed for him at the beach, it wasn't just for sunshine and warmth.  It was for God to lead in a major sense of the word lead!   As a vacationer, this evokes a sense of calmness and relaxation.  For Paul, the beach was the calm before and during the storm, and prayers of protection were overflowing.  As a simple Iowa girl, who only sees the beach on vacation, it's hard to imagine. 

The other thing that sticks out to me in this verse is his intentional mention of women. 

Acts 21:5

When it was time to leave, we left and continued on our way. All of them, including wives and children, accompanied us out of the city, and there on the beach we knelt to pray.

At various times throughout Acts, Paul is intentional about mentioning women.  (Acts 16, 17,18, ...)  Jesus also had these tendencies, to specifically mention women, so as to purpose their cause and place in society.  They were always welcome, as were the children.  Acts 21:9 - the four unmarried daughters who prophesied (thus indicating that women had their important place to take part in God's work.) are a bold statement for that time period.  That they should receive directly from God!

I'd also be feeling bad if I didn't mention that the Simply Grace (Acts 20:24) is in this section.  Testifying to the gospel of God's grace. 

- Or the verse that we give to Tom every year for Christmas - 20:35 - "we must help the weak, remembering the words the Lord Jesus himself said:  "it is more blessed to give than to receive."

I could go on and on about these Chapters.  For some reason, as I write this, the word "focus" is in my heart.  So many of these verses are about where our focus is.  (or is not...)  
 
"God, I pray that you make give me clarity as I try to focus on you.  Remove my distractions, my pride, my inequity, and just allow me to focus on you.  Even in times of trial (which we know are coming!), may I stand firm like Paul, focus on you and your perfect will, and proclaim you boldly!"

Acts 5 - 15 is where we're at...  Sorry for the lazy weekend.  The kids had a swim meet on Saturday and Tom went to the Vikings/Packers game with Matt for his 21st Birthday, so I was busy being mom....  Got my reading done, but posting was another thing:-) 

So.... I didn't pick just one verse from this portion of Acts.  Instead, I'm loving all the verses that reference baptism and being filled with the Holy Spirit. 

The go hand in hand in so many places.  I praise God for his Holy Spirit.  I know this can be a controversial issues, but it seems so clear to me in scripture.  I can't imagine life without being filled with His Spirit.  He blesses us in so many ways with his presence in and through us.  WOW...  I'd encourage each of you to re-read these sections for scripture and ask God to reveal himself in new ways.  Be open minded and let him show you his goodness.  He really is our best friend! 

"Thank you Lord for being a triune God.  God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit.  You work in so many wonderful ways in our lives..  I ask that you continue to reveal yourself to me.  As I draw close to you God, may you draw closer to me.  I want to know you more.  I want to experience your Holy Spirit working in my life more and for your glory.  Rekindle the fire Lord..."

It is finished...

Today my 10 chapers were John 17 - Acts 5

Much of what I read in John was the crucifixion of Jesus.  This is the 4th gospel that I have read this in during my reading time, but for some reason, these words really stand out to me. 

It's been a week of loss.  Many dear people said "It is finished..." this week.  My grandma's dear friend, Ruth Elliott.  A dear lady that I worked with at Advance Brands - Marilyn Kruid, My great aunt, Teresa Pick, and sweet precious Jude Willem Kroeze, and then today, Matthews favorite cat Jax.  My heart breaks for each of these families.  Losing those we love can seem unbearable.  I say it all the time, but...  what would we do without faith.

So, "It is finished..."  means something new to me this week.  It means, the walk here on Earth is done.  But... "it" hasn't yet begun.  Our eternity in heaven, Jesus coming again to Earth and brining heaven with him...  that has yet to begin.  So... while we focus on the "end," I'm so glad that we know that we haven't even began eternity.  And while what seems unbearable today for so many is hard, we get to have the assurance that because we believe that He died on that cross, that He defeated Satan, that He rose again and then ascended into heaven, we get to have life for forever.  Life as we know it will end, but as always, God has big plans for us.  Plans for eternity.  We can't imagine his glory, but soon, (and if things keep up at the rate they were this week, sooner than we think:-) we will be with him and experiencing joy we can't even begin to imagine. 

"Thank you Jesus.  Thank you for obedience and for dying on the cross.  Thanks for takin Satan, so that we can all "rise from the dead" into eternity!  We are so unworthy of claiming the benefit of the suffering that you had.  May we praise you and worhip you and may you find hearts full of love and gratitude.  We know that for many this week, their present life ended.  We pray supernatural peace for their families as they transition into the new day.  And until the day comes, when you return and say the final "It is finished" may you find us seeking you and your will." 

Peace...

aah.... what a day.  I was able to snuggle with my Emma, walk on the treadmill while reading my bible, see my mom, my grandma, Carter's "special" Marty, and still watch the boys play games and read part of the bible to them.   The prayer room via on the big screen...  I got to share my viewpoints on heaven with my grandma, got to hug her in her struggles, as she bids a friend of over 60 years goodbye...  As life goes... today was a good one!  Praise God!

From my reading, I'm leaning towards the very end.  We're on John 6 - 16, and I'm taking the last verse of John 16:33

33 “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”


Grandma, this one is for you... Jesus has overcome the world!!!  AMEN, and AMEN, and AMEN.  We don't have to worry about what heaven might look like, because we know that Jesus has prepared a place for us!  We are his....

In John 16 he tells us that he wants us to have peace.  Grandma, you will lose your best friend of more than 65 years...  (and I will cry tears for you!)  Your health will fail, you'll want to be with grandpa so bad that you can hardly endure what many of us look forward to every day....  Life is full of trouble.  But.... take heart!  Jesus died on the cross for our sins so that we could KNOW that we will have life in heaven (heaven on Earth when he returns!)  Rest knowing that he has prepared a place, and that he LOVES us!  He has good plans for us...  He loves us more than we love ourselves.... 
Today, I need that reassurance... how about you???? 

"Jesus, thank you for the promise that you give us in life everlasting!  You weave life together so perfectly.  Teach us to love like you!"

The last supper...

       
 I have always had a love for the last supper.  I imagine sitting around the table with the greatest leader of all times.  Being ordinary with him.  I love to get to know people for who they are and just be natural with them.  (Not one for all the formality and superficial stuff, as it's hard to get to know the real person!)  I used to think that alot of this was formality.  As I've gotten older, I see it more as an opportunity to see and get to know Jesus in a more personal "friendship" kind of way.  While washing feet seems ceremonial to us, in Bible times it was totally natural.  After all, they didn't walk around in Nike's!  So I see that like us washing our hands before we eat, or going to the restroom before you get into the car (can you tell I have little kids:-))  It's just something you do! 

But... how Jesus did it was amazing.  With love and humility.  Serving them.  It's about the posture...  He submitted himself.  Time and again, I read this part of scripture and think - if only I could be a leader like that... 
Anyway... today's verse is from this story... 
John 13: 25-27

25 Leaning back against Jesus, he asked him, “Lord, who is it?”

26 Jesus answered, “It is the one to whom I will give this piece of bread when I have dipped it in the dish.” Then, dipping the piece of bread, he gave it to Judas, the son of Simon Iscariot. 27 As soon as Judas took the bread, Satan entered into him.

For some reason this verse opened my eyes that Satan is really everywhere.  Seriously - this was the last supper.  And he entered into Judas there????  Just lurking and waiting to prompt with evil thoughts...  It truly makes me sad.  And, was Judas really that bad?  Or that different from us? 

HOWEVER, it also makes me rejoice that had itnot be for the Father's plan, Jesus wuold not have allowed this to happen.  He KNEW it was going to happen, and mean his betrayal and death.  He had the advantage of knowing the entire story!  He knew, that he would soon rise from the dead after defeating this same Satan, bringing with him eternal life!  So... in the big picture, this was an important piece for the plan. 

So... I can be aware that Satan is really everywhere...  But, I should be rejoicing that I don't have to worry about anything but listening to God.  If I am close to him,
"Father God - thank you for the reassurance that your plan is always greater than ours.  Today, as I watch 2 elderly women I deeply respected enter your kingdom of glory, and read updates about a young couple delivering their precious stillborn son, I can't help but to think how great it would be to know your greater plan.  And yet, satan is always there.  And he brings with him suffering and pain.  but you bring peace.  Not comfort... we will have troubles!  But peace....  Jesus had the peace of knowing that Judas was key to the plan you had for him.  May this passage give all peace, that you have a plan in all things, and are in control of all things.  May we strive to be humble and lead like Jesus.  Really God, who hands his betrayer bread and dines at the table with him, and washes his feet? - only a humble leader!  I want more of you.  More humility." 

Those eyes...

Today...  Luke 20 - John 6

Luke 22:61 - The Lord turned and looked straight at Peter. 

So, those words alone aren't so profound.  However, in context, they are bone chilling.  You see, Jesus had predicted Peter's denial.  Jesus was the only apostle that was daring enough to stay close to Jesus when they arrested him.  Yeah Peter! but then it happened....  3 times he denied him.  Imagine these eyes turning to you after your third time denying him... 




I read this and I thought to myself...  Sitting here, it's easy to think - wow Peter, he told you what would happen and you still fell prey to Satan.  But, seriously, what makes me think I would be any different.  I've been convicted alot lately about fear of man.  Not fear of death, but just what they will think of me.  So, who am I to scoff Peter...  He was fearful of death.  I, on the other hand, hold back at times, because I'm afraid of offending others, or of what they will think....  Convicting! 

"Lord, I ask that I would have the courage to ALWAYS acknowledge you.  Even if that means embarassment.  Remove my pride and help me to walk firm in your directions.  Guide my steps and give me wisdom and boldness!" 

Given Much...

So, I'm posting early today because I got sleepy last night! 

Yesterday was Luke 9 - 19. 

There were so many good stories in this section, that it is hard to chose just one to write about.  I flipped through again, and here is where I'm pondering today...

Luke 12:47-48

47 “The servant who knows the master’s will and does not get ready or does not do what the master wants will be beaten with many blows. 48 But the one who does not know and does things deserving punishment will be beaten with few blows. From everyone who has been given much, much will be demanded; and from the one who has been entrusted with much, much more will be asked.


To put it in context.. Jesus is telling the parable about putting the manager in charge of the servants for their food allowance, and that it is wise to find him doing so when he returns.  (and that he is coming when we don't expect him) 

You see, I had heard this verse often over the years.  To him who has been given much...  However, it was always in the context of earthly things.  You know, Food, housing, money, etc.  All material things.  And we were to share that... ok  - got it.

Now as I read it, I think HOLD ON....  In it's full context, I read it to mean so much more!  (Those of you who are bible wise can roll your eyes at me, it's ok...  I'm thinking I might be a little slow in getting this one!) 

The servant who knows his masters will - That's us, knowing God's will.  How do we do that?  Get into his word.  If we don't know his will - the punishment will be less.  This makes me think of His grace.  And the day of righteousness.  I think abut my kids.  If they do something wrong, knowing that it is against the rules, I tend to be more severe with their punishment.  However, if they do something wrong, and really didn't know that it was wrong (mind you, Emma claims this alot at the age of 4!)  leniency is in order.  A word I've used is "willfully disobedient"  I also think that because He knows the condition of our heart, grace is applied. 

So, if you have been given much, much will be demanded.  Yes, earthly blessings probably fall into here.  However, I'm thinking about the spiritual gifts that he gives us, along with his word.  If he gives you the gift of wisdom, and you don't use it to help others understand, what have you done with the gift he has given you.  Perhaps you have the gift of teaching, but you say... Lord I'm too busy, let someone else do it...  Or maybe your an intercessor, and yet find yourself saying, Lord I'm too busy to pray.  If you're a believer, he has given you gifts.  Discover them, walk into them, and use them!  To whom much is given, much will be demanded.  WHAT A PRIVELAGE.  To use your gifts from God for His glory. 

So... as I ponder this from a "knowing his will" perspective...  We have all (likely) been given a bible.  We have the ability to "know his will."  With out the Holy Spirit, it may be scary to hear, the more you know of your bible, the more is expected of you!  However, because of the Holy Spirit, the mroe we know, the more hungry we will be for it.  And the expectations will be considered pure joy! 

I firmly believe that I'm in a season of life that God is showing me more of "His will" so that I am able to be asked.  I also know that their is SO MUCH more knowledge that I haven't tapped into.  We can never know him completely!  Wow...

My Hometown...

Aaahhh.. the Lord's day! I love a day of rest!
Day 6...  Today's reading was Mark 15 - Luke 8.

I paused at Luke 4:24-27

24 “Truly I tell you,” he continued, “no prophet is accepted in his hometown. 25 I assure you that there were many widows in Israel in Elijah’s time, when the sky was shut for three and a half years and there was a severe famine throughout the land. 26 Yet Elijah was not sent to any of them, but to a widow in Zarephath in the region of Sidon. 27 And there were many in Israel with leprosy[a] in the time of Elisha the prophet, yet not one of them was cleansed—only Naaman the Syrian.”


Two things stick out to me. First, that a prophet is not accepted in his hometown. I guess because we are human and judgemental. AND because no one is without sin. It's easy to go to another town and "appear" to be a bit more "cleansed". However, in our home town, everyone knows our "garbage". They know our story, good and bad. Therefore, it's harder for them to accept us for who we are in Christ. Hmmm..... Somehow, I'm left thinking that I'm on both the giving and receiving end of this one!

And then, the widow at Zarephath. Honestly, I didn't even know she was mentioned here! The perspective this lends, adds to some work I've done lately about how God "goes out of his way" to bless. (especially women) Several times Jesus traveled out of his way to intentionally bless someone. But I hadn't thought about Elijah doing that... For now, I'll stay the course of my reading, but you can bet that I'm heading back to Elijah's days to see if there are other spots like this one! Don't get the point wrong here. I think he's really trying to say that Elijah didn't receive an open welcome in his town to bless people, so God sent him away during the famine.

Not so sure I'm getting my thoughts across clearly tonight! Sorry if I caused more confusion than doing good! Must be because my brain was at rest today!

Prayer...

So... grace is in order for my Friday post.  You see, I had the chance to spend the day, yes, the entire day in prayer.  Thanks so much to my friend Shery for organizing an incredible day to pray, worship, and read God's word.  WOW.... 

In Nehemiah 9:3 we read... 
They stood in their places and confessed their sins and the sins of their ancestors. ³ They stood where they were and read from the Book of the Law of the LORD their God for a quarter of the day, and spent another quarter in confession and in worshiping the LORD their God.

So 6 hours of the "Law" and 6 hours of confession and worshipping...  (OK - I didn't get 6 of each, but I got close, totaling 9 :-)  I'm still processing the glory of it, and how he whispered to me!  I'm also anticipating that as I listen, he'll draw nearer...  (Can you sense my excitement???) 

I count it a blessing to have a husband who is so supportive.  The kids didn't have school and it was his birthday, but he counted it a blessing to be able to spend the day alone with them.  Said it was one of his best birthdays!  We met up with Kendra, Kris and Matt in Sioux Falls, and had our entire family around the dinner table to celebrate!  

SO....  my Friday post, is now my Saturday post.  And guess what.... It has to do with prayer.  (Did you smile?) 

Today we're on Mark 4-14.... 

In Mark 11:17 Jesus had entered the temple and saw many buying and selling.  And he got upset... overturning tables and benches...  and he said...

Is it not written:  "My house will be called a house of prayer for all nations." 

As I reflect on "his house", I'm reminded of the modern day church.  It's been on my heart for SO long that we don't pray enough in all of our churches.  Prayer meetings are seen as boring and not attended, or at times obligatory, but not entered with a heart prepared to seek the Lord. 

I want not just my house, but every house to be called a temple of prayer.  My church house, and the home I'm raising my kids in, and anywhere else that prayer is offered up!  I want it for ALL nations.  Not just for my little comfort zone here in Northwest Iowa, but for ALL nations.  Those that face persecution get it at times.  Their hearts are so hungry when they enter into prayer.  Because I have it easy, many times I fear that I don't apperciate it for the blessing that it is.  What does a true house of prayer look like? 

I envision it (now, keep in mind, this is one women's interpretation) being non-stop.  That everything I do has a spirit of prayer over it.  As I'm pouring my kids cereal, at the office, driving them to activities, etc.  For each step of my day, my God feel and hear my prayers.

I have a cool story from yesterday...

I was in Sioux City, so Tom, little kids, and Matt drove to Sioux Falls, and I met them there.  I had talked to them on the phone, and as soon as I hung up, I felt this strong sense that I should pray for their safety.  (5 of the 7 of my family in one car without me...) So, as I drove and worshipped I pleaded for their safe travel. 

Later, Tom told me that they had nearly been in a bad accident.  Apparently some kid was texting and was all the way over on their side of the road, with no place for them to go because it dropped of...  He looked up for just a second and was able to correct just before he hit them... 

Now, I don't know that this was right when I was praying, but I do believe that God put it on my heart for a reason.  I'm so thankful that I was obedient to his prompting! 

Today, I'm inspired to pray.  To embrace my God in the way he's asked us to...   

Fleeing...

Day 3- we're on Mattthew 21 - Mark 3...














Ok - so it's a cartoon... but, to me, it's the modern day version of the disciples fleeing from Jesus. In Matthew 26:56b we read.. "Then all the disciples deserted him and fled." This is right after he is betrayed and is being captured. help but think of the he disciples fled... persecution taht we anticipate in the end times.

The disciples deserted him... The same people he walked with and talked with. He loved them. He wept over them. And they DESERTED HIM.... Fear of man... And I wonder why I have it! As I read this, I couldn't help but to think of this as we consider the persecution of the end times. Seriously, the disciples fled... What makes me think that should the end come today that I would be strong enough in my faith to stand firm?

A bit later we read about Peter - who follow him at a distance. Now, Jesus had told him that he would deny him 3 times (and he did). But, at best, he was able to follow him in the distance. (So much for living boldly huh?)

OK - so sarcasism aside, this portion of scripture convicted me that I always need to pressing in to know him more. If I want to be prepared for persecution, I MUST continue to know him better. (So that I don't flee!)

"Father God... create in me a devoted heart. Help me to stand by you, regardless of the circumstances. I'm reminded tonight of students being shot at Columbine, Colorado for standing up to you. While we may think that we'd be that brave, God I ask that you continue to challenge me to draw closer to you. May I not get lazy in "thinking" that I'm ok with you and may I continue to be hungry for more. I don't want to deny you even once Lord... Give me a pure heart for you and you alone!"

My Heart...

So... it's day two of my 30 day bible reading challenge. 

Today, I'm stuck on the condition of my heart.

In Matthew 15:8-9 

"These people honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me. 
They worship me in vain; their teachings are but rules taught by men."

WOW.... does that speak to me.  It is the desire of my heart, the it would be close to God.  Yet I know, that at times I am only honoring him with my lips, while my heart is cold and hard. 

And my worship???  Well, it seems that at times it depends on where I am.  For me, lately, church has been one of the more restricted places of worship.  Totally fear of man!  I'm letting the rules taught by men limit my worship for him in his house....  Ugh!!!  I want to worship with reckless abandon and let my heart seek him completely, regardless of where I am! 

"God... give me the confidence to loosen the fear of man.  May I seek you and your approval alone.  It's so easy to say here, sitting at my computer, sipping on my Diet Coke.  But God, why do I make it so hard when I'm out in the world....  Nudge me when I'm letting the world get the best of me.  I want my worship and my heart, everything about me to reflect more of you!" 

Wanna read the Bible????

I LOVE A CHALLENGE!!!  How about you...  Well, if so, have I got one for you!

It started last night when I was driving to Sioux City for a Compel meeting.  I was listening to some teaching on my IPOD, and was totally reviatlized! 

The speaker hit one some things that totally spoke to me.  The one that I'm SO excited about was a challenge in reading our bibles.  He talked about how most people, if you asked them would say that they read the bible.  But, if you dug deeper, we would see that the "thought" of reading the bible is more prevalent than actually reading it.  He challenged to spend 1 hour a day reading it.  (Seriously, I know I have that time in my day, I just need to prioritize it!) 

But then he hit on what REALLY got me going...  Did you know that if you read:
10 Chapters a day
6 Days a week
For 1 month....

YOU WILL HAVE READ THE ENTIRE NEW TESTAMENT!!!!

You see, when I read my bible, I always feel like I'm wandering here and there.  Hunting and pecking....  As I read, I'm either looking for something specific, or I feel like I'm not hitting on what I'm suppose to be (For the most part... at times, I get delightfully surprised!) 

SO.... the thought of a one month plan to read through is awesome to me.  10 chapters is totally doable! 

Now.... don't get me wrong.  I'm not talking about just reading words on the page to say I've got my reading done.  He challenged me to pray prior to even opening the bible.  God, guide me as I read and highlight what it is that you have for me.  Reveal to me what you would speak to me today, with where I am in my life..."  (I think you get what I'm saying!) 

SO.... I'm embarking on this journey (as of last night!)  DOES ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME????

I would love to have you join me in reading and posting.  My plan is to post here and on http://www.compelconference.blogspot.com/.  Each day I will share what particular thing God highlighted for me that day.  Then, I'd LOVE for you to share your comments, or just ask for accountability.  When we're done, we'll have an awesome log of how God was speaking to us in the New Testament.  For such a time as this! 

I'd LOVE to hear from you!  (and know that you're there to hold me accountable if nothing else!) 

So.... Here goes...

Day 1 - Matthew Ch. 1-10

I was worried as I read that I wasn't going to have anything to write on the first day! 

Then I got to Matthew 10:37-39 -

"Anyone who loves his father or mother mroe than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves his son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me; and anyone who does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me.  Whoever finds his life will lose it, and he whoever loses his life for my sake will find it."

WOW.....  As a mom, this hit at the heart level.  In my mind, I know that my priorities should be 1)God, 2) Family, and 3) work....  Lots of times in my life I had this order messed up (with work as #1)  But... if I really check my heart.... I think there are MANY times, when I love my kids more than I think I love God.  They are precious to me, and I will drop almost anything to be there for them.  To make them smile, and hear them giggle.  I've always known that god wants that from me.  But.... as I read this, it really stuck out that God says we're not worthy of him....  Thank heavens we have a gracious God!  But.... this to me was a great reminder of how we should prioritize.  He wants me to be a good mom.  BUT.... I will be the best mom I can be if I let him come first and be my center.... 

"God, I pray that you'll give me gentle reminders of how to prioritize my life.  Help me Lord to put you as my first love.  You are so good, and gracious!  May I find renewed energy and zeal for more and more of you!"

One thing...

 One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek:

that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life,

to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple.

 

Psalm 27:4

 
 
One thing... If I could only ask one thing, would I be as righteous as David and ask to dwell in the house of the Lord and gaze upon his beauty? 
 
I have a new conviction tonight for the lavish Love of our God, and for how little he REALLY asks of us.  (and yet how hard I find it at times to live all out for him!) 
 
I can never know Him fully, yet I'm asking Him to reveal Himself to me little by little.  I want more, I want more, I want more!!! 
 
Tonight, I got to go on a date with the Lord.  I was able to take 2 hours and soak in the word and in His LOVE for ME!!!   WOW...  I mean, I thought I got it, but wow!!! 
 
My challenge to you is this... Go on a date with God.  Go ahead... get all gussied up, and go with him.  Take his word and enjoy a candlelit dinner with him.  (literally, or in your minds eye - you decide!)  He wants to woo us and court us.  Go back to Him as your first love!  Giggle, adore, gaze upon his beauty! 
 

The FIRST and the LAST....

The First and the LAST - that's what the past couple of weeks has held for us. 

The first day of school.  Emma's first day ever of school (sniff, sniff...) (And our first annual girls pampering afternoon!)  The first day that smelled like fall, first Vikings and Hawkeye football games, etc. 

And the last... the last time in the pool (wiping tears!)  the last late weeknight, the last day wehre all three kids were home all day, blah, blah, blah... 

Here's Kendra and Emma in the pool on "THE LAST day of swimming" 

Another HUGE first at our house was the boys getting their very own BIBLE at church.  Oh, how I loved to see the excitement they had!   (This mommy got tears:-)  I can't wait for them to dive in and develop their own passion for God's word!  Hard to imagine my babies being big enough to read the bible for themselves!  WOW...

Firsts, and lasts....  All conjure up a ton of emotion.  Why do we hold these things so sacred?  Because we want to treasure every bit we can with them, and before we know, time has passed us by and we are realizing we could have done more. 

It's that way in our walk with God.  We don't know when the "last" day will be for us...  If we did we'd trying squeezing in all the first and lasts that we possibly could.  Instead, I challenge us to live each day to His glory!  Sounds cliche' but really, why don't we??? 

It also makes me think that our LOVE for Jesus should pale in comparison to our sentimental earthly memories we seek.  We read in scripture that He is the First and HE is the last... 

"Listen to me, O Jacob, Israel, whom I have called: I am he; I am the first and I am the last." Isaiah 48:12



When I saw him, I fell at his feet as though dead. Then he placed his right hand on me and said: "Do not be afraid. I am the First and the Last. - Revelation 1:17

So, today I'm praying that, although the earthly firsts and lasts are important, that I would spend more emotional energy with the TRUE FIRST AND LAST.  That I would know him more and pattern my life after HIM and HIS desires for me.  For He is the First and the Last.  The one who was, and is, and is to come.... 
 
God guide me in paths towards you and your ways.  May I not get so hung up on making memories here on Earth, that I miss out on the treasures you have in store for me.  May I live my life to be a blessing to you in all that I do, and may those memories be what sustains me.  May I model that for my kids so that they want what I want, which is more and more of you....

Where did summer go?

So, you're all saying it right now... where did summer go??  This photo was taken tonight as we took the boys to school for open house.  They've grown so much over the summer, and yet it seems like just yesterday we were celebrating the end of school....  And so it is with life. 

I think we truly savored as much summer as possible.  Lots of lazy days by the pool and fun times outside!  At the same time, I'm not quite ready to quit looking back at all the summer fun and start looking forward to the fall activites.  It seems like life just passes so quickly with these little ones, and before I know it they will be all grown up and not needing their momma anymore :-( 

As I was reflecting on this looking through photos tonight, I was struck by how we live so much of our lives this way....  not savoring today, but looking back, or looking forward. 

I came to this verse...
What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.  James 4:14b

In essence, we worry so much about how things are passing us by, or what might be coming, that we can't enjoy the here and now...  we don't know when our time on earth will cease and we'll enjoy our heavenly eternity.  What if it were tonight... 

For today, I'm committing to loving and living in the moment.  To not looking back or to far ahead, and just taking in the blessings around me.  WIll you join me? 

Sometimes, you just feel pure blessing.  I have felt that lately.  This is a photo taken at my home a week ago, just as a storm passed through and the sun was starting to set.  A double rainbow surrounded our house.  No, we weren't at the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, but it was a blessing all the same!  All of were in awe of the beauty.  We've had the chance to see SEVERAL rainbows this year because of all the rain we've been blessed with (OK, just a bit of sarcasism there:-))

At any rate, we had just returned home from a wonderful relaxing vacation and were unpacking and doing laundry... then this appears.  Thank you God, for perfect distractions! 

This weekend, Igot to celebrate 11 wonderful years with my dear husband.  He's amazing, and the way we've grown closer over the last few years than even before has me head over heels in love with him! 

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Ok, so not our finest shot, but a fun one from vacation! 

We spent Saturday with all the kids, and just hung out at home doing what we love to do.  Swimming and smoking dinner, and relaxing.  It was an awesome day. 

Today, I had my friend Lori and her daughter Callie over to swim, and Tom and the boys got to enjoy some fishing!  Tonight we were able to have one of our traditional Sunday night bonfires with hot dogs n smores! Aaahhh... who doesn't love summer????  

So tonight, I'm focused on blessings...  Thank you Lord, for blessing me.  Yes, I realize you have showered me this weekend and I am humbled by the love!  What an amazing God we serve!   

Oh, No, you never let go...

Will you never look away from me, or let me alone even for an instant?

                                                                         Job 7:19


Oh, what a night.  I so love it when God brings me to tears....

So, we had our first Community Unity Meal tonight,  which was months of dreaming coming to be...
(More to come on that later!) 

Following that, the kids and  I met Tom at Harp & Bowl...  Although we were only there for 1/2 hour, God used this time to the fullest...

Emma had been playing in the back with a few others.  She had made her way to me, and we were just starting to sing the song...

Oh no, you never let go, every high and every low... Oh no, you never let go of me...  (Do you know the one I mean?) 

Anyway, Emma found her way into my arms and the sweetest hug.  She was touching my face in her special Emma way, and we were singing. 

Then, God made himself so clear to me...  This is where I am with you all the time.  I'm like your child on your hip trying to hold you close and gently stroke your face.  I am that kind of love and so much more.  I never let go of you.  No matter how crabby you are, how good you are, etc.  I am always right there, even when you don't know it... 

WOW!!  I mean Jeez....  How amazing is that.  That after a VERY busy day, he loves me enough to share a bit of His intimacy with me?  I was moved to tears.  Having my moment with Emma was enough to do that to me..  And then to feel I was in his presence and he was speaking into my soul....  I can't explain it. 

So, the next time you are holding your kids close....  think of it! Our God, our heavenly father, holds us that close and loves us more than that...  The God of wrath and judgement has THAT kind of love for us!  May we never let go of him!!! 

Good to be home...

Aaahhh... the end of vacation.  My spiritual cup is full, my kids are in bed, and I am ready for a new week. 

We were able to enjoy a very relaxing and joy filled vacation (minus the crabby kids tonight! you know how it is when you're home and everyone is tired!  Including mom!!!) 

Not going to post much now, except that I so love a time of refreshing and renewal.  I am seeing things so differently after being away.  Mostly, convicted that I need to take the time to stop doing, and just be with my kids. 

Also, did some reading today in Esther...  feeling God speak to me that I need a time of preparation again.  Not certain what that means, but for Esther it was in preparation to please the king, and then again to ask of him....   I pray tonight for a new burning within to prepare me for Him and His presence...  whatever that may hold!  The good thinng about our God, is that it's bound to end good:-) 

Night for now.... 

Dancin in the Streets....

Some days are just good....  Sometimes God uses our kids to make our hearts so joyful we don't even know what to say, so we just watch and savor it.  Tonight was like that...

After VBS, we worked in the garden until it started raining.  All three kids were just coming in the house when Carter said "Mom, can I go dance in the rain?"  Of course, I wanted to say, no, get in the shower, it's almost bedtime...  Instead I looked at Tom and said, "well, you have to shower anyway...  go ahead!"  The subsequent squeals will not be forgotten.  Tom said grab your camera, and out to the front porch we went.  It was just lightly raining and they were having a blast.  Catching it with their mouths, dancing, singing and squealing....  And then, it REALLY started to rain, and out to the stree they went...  Look out puddles, here they come...

Honestly, I can still hear them laughing and giggling.  Tom and I stood on the porch with his arm around me just taking it in...  I said to him... "when we get old and are sitting out here, we will remember this moment."  It was certainly one to cherish.  The only way it would have been better would be if we were out their with them!  (But then who would have taken photos????)

I praise God for the heart of children.  For their abundance.  Sometimes it is an abundance of joy.  Othertimes of emotion that isn't as welcomed:-)  However, they are filled up and overflowing so often.  May I always remember tonight:  NOT just for the memory of watching my kids, but for the example they can be to me in my walk.  May I dance in the streets overflowing with Joy to know the Savior.  And may I teach them that in their walk with Christ! 

A First....

Here it is.... the first produce from our first garden!  We were out weeding this week and there it was.  A perfectly ripe little tomato.  Enough for each of us to have one small, delicious bite!  Can't wait until the rest of them are ready and we're snarfing down fresh BLT's...  MMMMMmmmmmmmmmm.


We made the move and planted a gareden this year.  We weren't sure where we wanted it to be long term, and debated about holding off a year, but decided it could always be moved, so we went for it.  (All but the aspargus which is still sitting by the garage door looking a bit rough!) 

Each of the kids picked a vegetable to plant and be responsible for weeding.  Well, the weeding part has been a bit of a struggle up until this last week with all the rain, but we're getting her whipped back into shape.  (So she's not a beauty, but it's a first!)  Rule is they have to weed what they planted.  Caleb was smart and picked the cucumbers!  Emma on the other hand picked the peas.  (Guess who does a lot of helping her!) 

This little tomato, and how we delighted in it made me think of God's rejoicing when even one hears his name and believes in him.  We are like the first picking for him at that point.  the first delicious taste of what life will be like with him.  Sweet and delicious. 

The kids are so excited to see things grow and to be ablet o eat them...  It's awesome to watch.  Again, I'm imagining how excited God is when he watches us grow and mature.  And then he picks us and takes us to heaven with him, and is delighted in us, just as we were in our little tomato!   

Good Ole Days...

So.... I made it through the big 20 year class reunion.  Seems odd to think that it was that long ago. 

Even more strange to me was how I can so vividly remember the voices, the laughs, the looks, all of it.  It was like in so many ways we didn't miss a beat.

You see, I graduated from a class of 17.  One of whom has passed to be with our savior.  In a class this small, everyone was a friend.  We were close and didn't have cliques too much.  It was great!  Most of the class made it back and we spent 2 evenings together. 

As I was listening to my good friend Bobbi talk, I caught myself laughing at how she hadn't seemed to change at all.  She was still the Bobbi that I remembered. 

Then it struck me that is much like how God see's us....  You see, each of us at that class reunion had a story.  Each of us has walked through struggle and trials and bad times.  Yet, when we reunite, that stuff didnt matter.  We were friends and cared for one another.  The others was just yucky details that didn't matter.  The laughter and mannerisms and faces and smiles were the same. 

And someday, we'll all be togetherin heaven.  And God will rejoice and celebrate with us.  And whatever we walked through in our time on Earth, God will still not only recognize us, but Love us.  When we laugh, it will bring a smile to his face.  I can imagine him chuckling and saying "Oh that Jen, she always was a talkative one."  (REMEMBER HE CREATED ME THAT WAY:-))  The good will overcme the times when we let him down.  And, unlike our Earthly human selves, he will have wiped away that past and see us as pure and holy.  WOW!!!! 

So, as I sit here tonight and reflect on the "good ole days", I'm reminded that one day, I'll get to do the same with God.  Reflect on how his plan worked out so perfectly in my life.  How he designed it to be just as it is.  How he loves to hear me laugh and rejoices in how I am created... 

Thank you God, for loving me, inspite of me.  Humble me and draw me closer to you so that yours may be the laughter that I hear!