Patience

My mom has always told me that patience is a virtue.  Throughout life, that has been an issue for me.  I am an instant gratification kind of girl!  Waiting is not something I am fond of.  I think God has an incredible sense of humor, because often I find myself waiting upon him...  This week, for a word about my talks. 

Lamentations 3:23-25


They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.
I say to myself, "The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for him."
The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him;

Monday, as I was talking, he prompted my heart to share things I hadn't planned for.  As the words were coming out of my mouth I remember thinking - Lord, thank you... but next time could you give me a bit of warning:-) 

He is good and we're told repeatedly to wait upon him. 

Psalm 27:14

Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.

Psalm 40:1

I waited patiently for the LORD; he turned to me and heard my cry.
 
So....  I'm waiting.  I'm looking for confirmation for the Letting Go and Letting God talk this weekend.  I have an outline that needs to be turned in, and I don't feel like I've heard what I need to from God.  So, I'm waiting....  Praise God the people at the conference have more patience than me huh? 
 
Seriuosly though.... I can't help but wonder why I am so self centered that I have such issues with waiting.  God has been so faithful and i know he'll give me the words... he always does.  I can't say i'm worried, more just lacking patience (that's a nice way of saying - truthfully I'm irritated!) 
 
What is in the talk is good, so I'm not worried.  we're going to talk about the Garden of Gethsemane (Sorry - can't spell it!)  During my Neh. 9 time, God revealed much to me about this part of the gospels...  So I know what i have is from him.  However, I can't get rid of this feeling that he isn't done and has more to give me.  
 
So today, I'm praying for patience.  Not just for this, but for my husband as well.  He is processing some things and praying hard for them.  I wait patiently.  (And pray feverently!)  So...  more so than my talk, which I feel better just whining about for a while... pray for discernment and God revelations for Tom!  (Again, I'm waiting on God to move through Tom and provide.)  
 
Psalm 9:10
Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you.

THANK You God for the love you have for us.  thank you that we know you will answer us if we call to you.  Forgive my impatience.  It is not for lack of faith, as I know you'll provide.  I praise you for that reassurance.  You have the perfect plan and the perfect way.  May we be assured that your ways are so much higher than ours and that we can't begin to imagine the greater plan you have in everything.  So, I'm waiting, but knowing that you are working wonders and growing me in new ways.  Reveal yourself to me and provide confidence where I am weak. (As Emma would say!)  MA-Men